. in truth .

„Most people don’t grow up. It’s too damn difficult. What happens is most people get older. That’s the truth of it. They honor their credit cards, they find parking spaces, they marry, they have the nerve to have children, but they don’t grow up. Not really. They get older. But to grow up costs the earth, the earth. It means you take responsibility for the time you take up, for the space you occupy. It’s serious business. And you find out what it costs us to love and to lose, to dare and to fail. And maybe even more, to succeed. What it costs, in truth.“

Maya Angelou

These words were with me the whole week. They describe what I felt for a long time but couldn’t express. That’s what I feel – I grew older, but too often I don’t feel like a grownup. Something’s missing. And now I know. And I’m not afraid to find out what it‘ll cost me.